tingkah lucu bayi kecil kucingku...

Ini nih dua anak kucing kecilku yang manis dan menggemaskan, juga sedikit nakal...hehe..

ini dua kucing kecilku sama induknya lagi menyusu, lucuna....

Dua kucing imut lagi tidur, tapi yang satu jadi terbangun karena cahaya lampu dari cybershot-ku, hihi...maaf ya...ayo lanjut tidur siang lagi...

Nyenyak banget tidurnya...

Tidur di pelukan induknya...hangatnya...

Mereka sangat suka tidur ya...mirip siapa ya...hehe...

Na, itu tadi tingkah kucing-kucingku. Lucu dan manis kan? Tentu saja. Psst, sudah dulu ya. Aku akan membiarkan keduanya tidur dengan tenang lagi, dan berhenti mengganggunya dengan lampu kameraku yang menyilaukan mata.

Ciao... ^_^

na-chan

=.=

"Paparazzi"

Lagi suka banget sama lagu Lady Gaga 'Paparazzi' ini... jadi pengen nulis liriknya di sini... here in my personal blog. check it out...

"Paparazzi"

We are the crowd
We're coming out
Got my flash on it's true
Need that picture of you
It's so magical
We'd be so fantastic, oh

Leather and jeans
Garage glamorous
Not sure what it means
But this photo of us
It don't have a price
Ready for those flashing lights
'Cause you know that baby I-

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your-
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi

I'll be your girl backstage at your show
Velvet ropes and guitars
Yeah cause you're my rockstar in between the sets
Eyeliner and cigarettes

Shadow is burnt, yellow dance and return
My lashes are dry - purple teardrops I cry
It don't have a price
Loving you is Cherry Pie
'Cause you know that baby I
I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi

Real good, We're dancing in the studio
Snap-snap, to that shit on the radio
Don't stop, for anyone
We're plastic but we still have fun

I'm your biggest fan
I'll follow you until you love me
Papa-Paparazzi
Baby there's no other superstar
You know that I'll be your
Papa-Paparazzi

Promise I'll be kind
But I won't stop until that boy is mine
Baby you'll be famous
Chase you down until you love me
Papa-paparazzi



[Thanks to Yann for these lyrics]
[Thanks to Aimee Cullen, Kolton, Sage Harris, jessica Carlson for correcting these lyrics]


Lagunya asik banget didengerin...nge-beat gitu...


=.=
na-chan

Goodbye....

 Another Sad Goodbye....

Today, Tuesday, October 19, 2010, another great woman has passed away....

Rasanya  pasti sedih banget saat ditinggalin orang tersayang, tercinta, dan terdekat kita. untuk selama-lamanya. Aku pernah mengalami itu. Aku seakan gak bisa mengerti dengan semua yang terjadi. Namun aku sadar, semua yang trjadi dalam hidup ini adalah kuasa-Nya. Kita gak akan pernah bisa menghindari takdir itu. Dan semua ini akdir. Bahwa apa yang menjadi milik-Nya, akan kembali pada-Nya. Aku tau itu. Dan sedikit demi sedikit aku belajar untuk merelakan kepergiannya, walau itu bukan perkara yang mudah. Namun aku percaya, my MOM sudah bahagia di sana. MOM sudah berada di tempat yang indah dan menyenangkan, aku percaya itu.

Aku tau memang sangat menyedihkan ditinggalkan orang yang sangat dekat dengan kita. Dan yang bisa kita lakukan hanya pasrah terhadap kehendak-Nya. Semua ini sudah digariskan akan terjadi. Kita memang gak pernah siap menbhadapi kehilangan. Tapi kita harus menghadapinya. Kita harus kuat.

Buat Keluarga Bp. Kusno, saya hanya bisa mengucapkan, saya turut berduka cita yang sedalam-dalamnya atas kepergian Alm. Ibu Sri Wiyati ke pangkuan Sang Pencipta. Semoga amal ibadah Beliau semasa hidupnya diterima oleh Allah SWT. AMIN. Dan semoga keluarga yang ditinggalkan diberi ketabahan.

Buat Adul, don't ever give up to life. Aku tau hidup gak akan pernah mudah bagi semua orang. Tapi semua pasti ada jalan. Kita berdua menjadi sama sekarang. Sama-sama ditinggalkan orang yang sudah melahirkan kita dengan susah payah, membesarkan kita, mendidik kita, mengajarkan kita tentang hidup, namun kita gak boleh membiarkan rasa sedih itu berlarut-larut. Kita akan bangkit dan bersiap untuk menata masa depan yang cerah. Ok, bro????

Miss U, wherever U are....

PS. this note dedicated special to Mrs. Kusno (In Memoriam)

Tuesday, Oct 19, 2010.

na-chan

(=.=)

‘Hobby Jatoh Ya, Mbak?’

'Hobby Jatoh Ya, Mbak?'

Lama banget gak nulis blog, aku malah dapat hadiah 'Jatoh' dua kali. Bukan prestasi yang membanggakan. Pertama kali, aku jatoh sebelum puasa, tepatnya tanggal 7 Agustus 2010. Lukanya cukup banyak dan berdarah-darah.

IMU

i

 I know that I learn from this quote, that no guy is worth crying for,
but why i still cry over him, every night, and i can't stop doing it.

my Temon jr. in action

She likes sleeping a lot...

See? She really likes sleeping a lot. In my bed, in my chairs, in the floor, and wherever she could lay her body comfortly... So, happy sleeping. However, it's a long holiday, so there's no need to wake up early in the morning.
Enjoy your holiday,...

a lil words for you...

If I could just clear my memories of you . . . .
I miss you . . . .
Every atom in me miss you so bad . . . .
I'd clear it, if I could
there's nothing to worry
at least, I'm not becoming a sleeping pill addict,
    and need to go to rehab
I know, I'd been through hell for these past two-three months,
but I'm lucky I'm still breathing by now.
When it comes to love, it's hard to accept cruel reality, or the truth . . .
I missed all the moments as bad as I wanted to refresh my mind . . .

you, yes, you... where are you hiding?

doko ni????

Pengen banget berteriak ke seluruh dunia. pengen banget mengungkapkan semua perasaanku padanya... tapi apa bisa sampai? 
rasanya terlalu jauh,...semua akses sudah tertutup untukku, sama sekali aku gak bisa kembali. Aku gak bisa kembali. sampai kapanpun juga.

Oh, betapa aku merindunya. setiap molekul-molekul di dalam diriku merindukannya. Namun semuanya gak akan sama lagi. Semuanya sudah berubah. Semuanya sudah jadi garis takdirku, untuk berpisah dengannya, di saat aku sangat membutuhkannya. Di saat aku kehilangan sosok paling berharga dalam hidupku, di saat aku menjadi manusia paling rapuh sedunia, dia memutuskan untuk pergi meninggalkanku. Aku mencoba untuk tegar dan menerima semua ini walau ini sangat sulit bagiku. Namun aku gak akan berhenti untuk mencintainya. I just can't. I can't. Please don't make me!!


I miss you, where were you hiding? where were you? Did you ever miss me, even just for one second in your life? Did you ever try to see me? Or did you ever try to find me? Well, I guess no.


T.T


n_n

my luvly and my beloved MOM .... (in memorian)

My beautiful Mom...

T.T
I always love you, Mommy. Miss you a lot. Cant help it now.

Rossi in action...

Big poster of the doctor...

Here I present you Temon jr.

Okay, this is my luvly cat, named Temon jr. She is Temon's child, so I name her Temon jr. It's a name from my mother. She named it back then. And i use it now.

 And this is the picture of Temon.

 I love them both. They really look alike, don't they? hehehee,....
It's like I'm having twin cats in my home.

n_n

hear it...it's a good song...

"Airplanes"
(feat. Hayley Williams, Eminem)

[Chorus: Hailey Williams]
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now

[Bridge:]
Dreaming.
(oh oh oh oh)
Of falling (mmm mmm mmm mmm)
Dreaming (ooh oh oh oh)

[B.o.B]
(ya) Lets pretend like it's 98
Like I'm eating lunch off of styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next rapper comin out the A (A-town)
Hoping for a record deal to ignore my pain (ya)
Now lets pretend like I'm on the stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane (woo)
Okay
And everybody know my name and everywhere I go people wanna hear me sing (oh)
Oh yeah and I just dropped my new album on the first week I did Five-Hundred Thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall and then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they called me the greatest selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and noone ever hated
Lets try to use imagination

[Chorus]

Okay lets pretend like this never happened (never)
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper (rapper)
Like I didn't write raps up in all of my classes
Like I never used to run away into the blackness
Now lets pretend like it was all good (good) like I didn't live staring in a notebook (notebook)
Like I did the things that I probably knew I should (should)
But I aint have neighbours thats why they call it hood (hood yeah)
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name before they ever call me BOB aka Bobby ray
I'm talking back before the mixtapes (yeah) before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before the ever once compared me to andre before I ever got on myspace
Before they ever noticed my face so lets just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

[Chorus]

[Bridge II:]
And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone (gone gone) and just memories
(oh oh)
And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone (gone gone)

[Eminem]
Alright lets pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Lets pretend things would have been no different
Pretend he procrastinated had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that were so paper thin they could blow away with the wind
Marshall you're never gonna make it makes no sense to play the game there ain't no way that you'll win
Pretend he just stayed outside all day and played with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasn't time to move and schools were changing again
He wasn't socially awkward and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasn't crazy as shit
And he never dreamed he could rip stadiums and just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in a gymnasium bitch you won't amount to shit quit daydreaming kid
You need to get your cranium checked you thinking like an alien it just ain't realistic
Now pretend they ain't just make him angry with this shit and there was no one he could even aim when he's pissed it
And his alarm went off to wake him off but he didn't make it to the rap Olympics left to his plane and he missed it
He's gon' have a hard time explaining to Hailey and Laney these food stamps and this WIC shit
Cuz he never risked shit he hopes and he wished it but it didn't fall in his lap so he ain't even here
He pretends that

[Hailey Williams]
Airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now

Uh hmm oh oh oh ooo
Uhu mm aalalalaa

Smile, girl...

I know it's hard to...but please try to spread your lips and just show them your sweet smile...I know that you feel terrible about everything, but there's so many reason that you have to struggle in life. it ain't easy. this life would never easy.

And even your beloved Mother has already left you, it didn't mean that you're alone. you still have your close friends who always stand behind your back, waiting to give their best support to you.

 So, please smile,...
Smile for the today.
Smile for tomorrow.
And smile for whatever happened yesterday...
Smile, girl.......^_^
 

Goodbye, my beloved Mom... I love you...and I miss you...

It's been my greatest loss of all. When love of my life decided to leave me alone, i took like forever nights to cry over him. but it's all okay, then.
but i'm not ready, when Mom said goodbye, or she never did. i never got to see her again. i realize that. and it's so sad. and i can do nothing to make it any better. maybe i can pretend to smile when i meet people, but inside my heart, i feel so alone. Mom, i miss you, can i go back to the time when everything's okay.

careful what u wish for,....

"Careful What You Wish For"

[Verse 1]
So this is it...
This is what I wished for
Just isn't how I envisioned it
Famed to the point of imprisonment
I just thought the shit'd be different
But something changed
The minute that I got a whiff of it
I started to inhale it
Smell it
Started sniffin' it
And it became my cocaine
I just couldn't quit
I just wanted a little bit
Then it turned me (in) to a monster
I became a hypocrite
Concert after concert

I was raking in the dough
Rolling in green
Had the game hemmed up
Like a sewing machine
But I was losing my freedom
There was no where for me
To not go and be seen
And just go and be me
And there was no in-between
You either loved it or hate it

Every CD critics gave it a 3, then 3
Years later, they'd go back and re-rate it
And call the Slim Shady LP the greatest
The Marshall Mathers was a classic
The Eminem Show was fantastic
But Encore just didn't have the caliber to match it
I guess enough time just ain't passed, yet
A couple more years, that shit'll be ill-matic
And eight years later, I'm still at it
Divorce, re-married
A felon
A father
Sleeping pill addict
And this is real talk
I feel like the Incredible Hulk
My back has been broke, and I can still walk

[Chorus]
So be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do wit' it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

I said

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do wit' it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

[Verse 2]
I got a letter from a fan, that said
He's been praying for me
Every day and for some reason
It's been weighing on my mind heavy
'Cause I don't read every
Letter I get, but something told me to go ahead and open it, but
Why would someone pray for you when they don't know you?
You didn't pray for me when I was local
And as I lay these vocals
I think of all the shit I had to go through
Just to get to where I'm at
I've already told you at least

A thousand times in these rhymes
I appreciate the prayer, but I've already got
God on my side
And it's been one hell of a ride, hasn't it?
Just watchin' it from an opposite standpoint
Man, boy's got to look
Nuts
And that's the only word I can think of right now
On how
To describe the shit
This is like a vibe you get
Go ahead and bob to it
Just watch what you wish for, 'cause I got the shit

[Chorus]
So be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do wit' it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

I said

Be careful what you wish for
'Cause you just might get it
And if you get it then you just might not know
What to do wit' it, 'cause it might just
Come back on you ten-fold

words from : Eminem's song --- Careful What You Wish For...
:
: :
: : :
: : : : you're right, Em,...sometimes we wish something to happen in our life but when it did happen, we just dont realize it, and it already flew away, and all we can do is regret it for the entire of our life,..but i won't be that person,
i'll just take a big note on this..i'll stop wallowing, i'll stop regreting of something that i can't have, and i'll start loving myself for many reasons,..
at least i'm not a sleeping pill addict like Em, thank God i'm not!!!


L,
nana-chan
(^_^)

mommy's hospitalized....(again)

Poor Mom....

Mom's hospitalized again... for same disease, diabetics.
it's been three days since Mom's brought to RS. Brayat Minulya.
i hope Mom gets better soon. i miiss you, Mommy.......

a memory of you - - - i never meant to hate you

it's all good and full of joy in the beginning.... and then time blast so fast, and all i could remember was he said goodbye and he never let me know what's ever gone wrong, and i didn't have a chance to ask why he did that to me,...how could he do that to me,...
he's a boy with a good manner and always had a sense of humor. he's so powerful. he's great. he's charming. he's cute, in his own way. he had lots of love to give. he loves kids. he adores his parents. he prays a lot. he's .... i don't know, i think he's someone that's close to perfect.
it's been two months now. and i can't stop wallowing. i need to stop it, but i can't. it's useless.
he means a lot to me,...

beauTifuL

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own Everybody has a private world
Where they can be alone
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you

I'm just so fuckin' depressed I just can seem to get out this slump
If I could just get over this hump
But I need something to pull me out this dump I took my bruises, took my lumps
Fell down and I got right back up But I need that spark to get psyched back up
In order for me to pick the mic back up I don't know how I pry away
And I ended up in this position I'm in I starting to feel distant again
So I decided just to pick this pen
Up and tried to make an attempt to vent
But I just can't admit Or come to grips, with the fact that I may be done with rap
I need a new outlet I know some shits so hard to swallow
And I just can't sit back and wallow
In my own sorrow
But I know one fact I'll be one tough act to follow
One tough act to follow I'll be one tough act to follow
Here today, gone tomorrow
But you have to walk a thousand miles

[Chorus:]
In my shoes, just to see
What it's like, to be me I'll be you, let's trade shoes
Just to see what it'd be like to
Feel your pain, you feel mine
Go inside each other's mind
Just to see what we find
Look at shit through each other's eyes
But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful oh
They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh they can all get fucked. Just stay true to you

I think I'm starting to lose my sense of humor
Everything is so tense and gloom
I almost feel like I gotta check the temperature in the room
Just as soon as I walk in
It's like all eyes on me
So I try to avoid any eye contact
'cause if I do that then it opens a door to conversation
Like I want that... I'm not looking for extra attention
I just want to be just like you
Blend in with the rest of the room
Maybe just point me to the closest restroom I don't need no fucking man servant
Trying to follow me around, and wipe my ass
Laugh at every single joke I crack
And half of them ain't even funny like
Ah Marshall, you're so funny man, you should be a comedian, god damn
Unfortunately I am, but I just hide behind the tears of a clown
So why don't you all sit down
Listen to the tale I'm about to tell
Hell, we don't have to trade our shoes
And you don't have to walk no thousand miles

[Chorus]

But don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked.
Just stay true to you so
Don't let 'em say you ain't beautiful
Oh They can all get fucked. Just stay true to you so

Nobody asked for life to deal us
With these bullshit hands we're dealt
We have to take these cards ourselves
And flip them, don't expect no help
Now I could have either just
Sat on my ass and pissed and moaned
But take this situation in which I'm placed in
And get up and get my own
I was never the type of kid
To wait by the door and pack his bags
Never sat on the porch and hoped and prayed
For a dad to show up who never did
I just wanted to fit in
Every single place
Every school I went
I dreamed of being that cool kid
Even if it meant acting stupid
Aunt Edna always told me
Keep making that face till it gets stuck like that
Meanwhile I'm just standing there
Holding my tongue up trying to talk like this
Till I stuck my tongue on the frozen stop sign poll at 8 years old
I learned my lesson and cause I wasn't trying to impress my friends no more
But I already told you my whole life story
Not just based on my description
'cause where you see it from where you're sitting
Is probably 110% different
I guess we would have to walk a mile
In each other's shoes, at least
What size you where? I wear tens
Let's see if you can fit your feet

[Chorus]

Lately I've been hard to reach I've been too long on my own
Everybody has a private world Where they can be alone... so
Are you calling me, are you trying to get through oh
Are you reaching out for me, I'm reaching out for you
so oh oh

Yea... To my babies. Stay strong.
Daddy will be home soon
And to the rest of the world, god gave you the shoes
That fit you, so put em on and wear em
And be yourself man, be proud of who you are
Even if it sounds corny,
Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful