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 I know that I learn from this quote, that no guy is worth crying for,
but why i still cry over him, every night, and i can't stop doing it.

my Temon jr. in action

She likes sleeping a lot...

See? She really likes sleeping a lot. In my bed, in my chairs, in the floor, and wherever she could lay her body comfortly... So, happy sleeping. However, it's a long holiday, so there's no need to wake up early in the morning.
Enjoy your holiday,...

a lil words for you...

If I could just clear my memories of you . . . .
I miss you . . . .
Every atom in me miss you so bad . . . .
I'd clear it, if I could
there's nothing to worry
at least, I'm not becoming a sleeping pill addict,
    and need to go to rehab
I know, I'd been through hell for these past two-three months,
but I'm lucky I'm still breathing by now.
When it comes to love, it's hard to accept cruel reality, or the truth . . .
I missed all the moments as bad as I wanted to refresh my mind . . .

you, yes, you... where are you hiding?

doko ni????

Pengen banget berteriak ke seluruh dunia. pengen banget mengungkapkan semua perasaanku padanya... tapi apa bisa sampai? 
rasanya terlalu jauh,...semua akses sudah tertutup untukku, sama sekali aku gak bisa kembali. Aku gak bisa kembali. sampai kapanpun juga.

Oh, betapa aku merindunya. setiap molekul-molekul di dalam diriku merindukannya. Namun semuanya gak akan sama lagi. Semuanya sudah berubah. Semuanya sudah jadi garis takdirku, untuk berpisah dengannya, di saat aku sangat membutuhkannya. Di saat aku kehilangan sosok paling berharga dalam hidupku, di saat aku menjadi manusia paling rapuh sedunia, dia memutuskan untuk pergi meninggalkanku. Aku mencoba untuk tegar dan menerima semua ini walau ini sangat sulit bagiku. Namun aku gak akan berhenti untuk mencintainya. I just can't. I can't. Please don't make me!!


I miss you, where were you hiding? where were you? Did you ever miss me, even just for one second in your life? Did you ever try to see me? Or did you ever try to find me? Well, I guess no.


T.T


n_n

my luvly and my beloved MOM .... (in memorian)

My beautiful Mom...

T.T
I always love you, Mommy. Miss you a lot. Cant help it now.

Rossi in action...

Big poster of the doctor...

Here I present you Temon jr.

Okay, this is my luvly cat, named Temon jr. She is Temon's child, so I name her Temon jr. It's a name from my mother. She named it back then. And i use it now.

 And this is the picture of Temon.

 I love them both. They really look alike, don't they? hehehee,....
It's like I'm having twin cats in my home.

n_n

hear it...it's a good song...

"Airplanes"
(feat. Hayley Williams, Eminem)

[Chorus: Hailey Williams]
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now

[Bridge:]
Dreaming.
(oh oh oh oh)
Of falling (mmm mmm mmm mmm)
Dreaming (ooh oh oh oh)

[B.o.B]
(ya) Lets pretend like it's 98
Like I'm eating lunch off of styrofoam trays
Trying to be the next rapper comin out the A (A-town)
Hoping for a record deal to ignore my pain (ya)
Now lets pretend like I'm on the stage
And when my beat drops everybody goes insane (woo)
Okay
And everybody know my name and everywhere I go people wanna hear me sing (oh)
Oh yeah and I just dropped my new album on the first week I did Five-Hundred Thousand
Gold in the spring and diamond in the fall and then a world tour just to top it all off
And lets pretend like they called me the greatest selling out arenas with big ass stages
And everybody loved me and noone ever hated
Lets try to use imagination

[Chorus]

Okay lets pretend like this never happened (never)
Like I never had dreams of being a rapper (rapper)
Like I didn't write raps up in all of my classes
Like I never used to run away into the blackness
Now lets pretend like it was all good (good) like I didn't live staring in a notebook (notebook)
Like I did the things that I probably knew I should (should)
But I aint have neighbours thats why they call it hood (hood yeah)
Now lets pretend like I aint got a name before they ever call me BOB aka Bobby ray
I'm talking back before the mixtapes (yeah) before the videos and the deals and the fame
Before the ever once compared me to andre before I ever got on myspace
Before they ever noticed my face so lets just pretend and make wishes out of airplanes

[Chorus]

[Bridge II:]
And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone (gone gone) and just memories
(oh oh)
And it seems like yesterday it was just a dream
But those days are gone (gone gone)

[Eminem]
Alright lets pretend Marshall Mathers never picked up a pen
Lets pretend things would have been no different
Pretend he procrastinated had no motivation
Pretend he just made excuses that were so paper thin they could blow away with the wind
Marshall you're never gonna make it makes no sense to play the game there ain't no way that you'll win
Pretend he just stayed outside all day and played with his friends
Pretend he even had a friend to say was his friend
And it wasn't time to move and schools were changing again
He wasn't socially awkward and just strange as a kid
He had a father and his mother wasn't crazy as shit
And he never dreamed he could rip stadiums and just lazy as shit
Fuck a talent show in a gymnasium bitch you won't amount to shit quit daydreaming kid
You need to get your cranium checked you thinking like an alien it just ain't realistic
Now pretend they ain't just make him angry with this shit and there was no one he could even aim when he's pissed it
And his alarm went off to wake him off but he didn't make it to the rap Olympics left to his plane and he missed it
He's gon' have a hard time explaining to Hailey and Laney these food stamps and this WIC shit
Cuz he never risked shit he hopes and he wished it but it didn't fall in his lap so he ain't even here
He pretends that

[Hailey Williams]
Airplanes in the night sky like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now
Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now wish right now wish right now

Uh hmm oh oh oh ooo
Uhu mm aalalalaa

Smile, girl...

I know it's hard to...but please try to spread your lips and just show them your sweet smile...I know that you feel terrible about everything, but there's so many reason that you have to struggle in life. it ain't easy. this life would never easy.

And even your beloved Mother has already left you, it didn't mean that you're alone. you still have your close friends who always stand behind your back, waiting to give their best support to you.

 So, please smile,...
Smile for the today.
Smile for tomorrow.
And smile for whatever happened yesterday...
Smile, girl.......^_^
 

Goodbye, my beloved Mom... I love you...and I miss you...

It's been my greatest loss of all. When love of my life decided to leave me alone, i took like forever nights to cry over him. but it's all okay, then.
but i'm not ready, when Mom said goodbye, or she never did. i never got to see her again. i realize that. and it's so sad. and i can do nothing to make it any better. maybe i can pretend to smile when i meet people, but inside my heart, i feel so alone. Mom, i miss you, can i go back to the time when everything's okay.